Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Give me love, give me hope, give me...


...peace on earth.

I always turn to George Harrison when I need to keep things in perspective.

This has been an odd week. It's April and it's freezing. It has hailed. I have taken more helpline calls at work from people who are crying than I have in the entire year I have worked there, and I feel more helpless than ever.

We have an information and referral line - all I can do is give them information and referrals. I tell them I am living proof it will get better...and then I don't know what happens next.

All we can do, my boss tells me, is function as part of a link in the chain of their recovery. We can give them information and hope they use it.

But at times I feel like I have no idea what the hell I'm doing. OK, most of the time. I never in a million years thought I'd be telling complete strangers bits of my own story to try to give them hope that things would get better.

Will it get better for them? Will they make that call? I have no idea, and I hate not knowing.

Tomorrow I am going to a memorial service for someone who was dually diagnosed and overdosed on drugs.

I didn't even know this person but I am good friends with one of his relatives and I just ache for their family.

I will be playing this song in the car:

Give me love
Give me love
Give me peace on earth
Give me light
Give me life
Keep me free from birth
Give me hope
Help me cope, with this heavy load
Trying to, touch and reach you with,
heart and soul

PLEASE take hold of my hand, that
I might understand you

Won't you please
Oh won't you

Give me love
Give me love
Give me peace on earth
Give me light
Give me life
Keep me free from birth
Give me hope
Help me cope, with this heavy load
Trying to, touch and reach you with,
heart and soul

PLEASE take hold of my hand, that
I might understand you

10 comments:

Claire said...

What a beautiful post sweetheart. What you do is so important and lifesaving.

Cxx

Scarlet said...

My heart goes out to this family, and Chica, you are a blessing to all those people you come in contact with. Your words are NEVER wasted! Trust me on this one. :)

LL Cool Joe said...

Must be so hard to hold it together when you are constantly dealing with people who are falling apart. :(

vivavavoom said...

there is hope! and glad you are on the other line offering it. george just got his star on the walk of fame I heard. so now all can walk all over him I guess!

alan said...

It's amazing how much the words that meant so much so many years ago can mean even more now, be it the ones of caring or the ones of prophecy...

'Tis a wonderful thing you do!

alan

pheromone girl said...

Perfectly stated. And we are proof that it does get better. Daily.

Fireblossom said...

I don't have any wit or wisdom today, but I am here and reading. Hope is always a good thing!

JLee said...

It has to be hard on you dealing with these types of situations. Just remember all the good that you do, even when sometimes it doesn't seem like it :)

Darth Weasel said...

wishing you the best in your time of grief. sorry to hear about that.

Green tea said...

I feel for you Kitty.
Nothing harder then dealing with
this kind of pain.
I can't help but wonder how some people get by using this crap and others end up overdosing.
It will be two years Memorial day weekend that my Grand niece overdosed on Heroin and her folks thought she was in recovery.
Hang in there Kid..